Happy Mother's Day

May 10, 2009

Happy Mother's Day to all the mother's out there.  I know it is not Mother's Day today, but it was today in 2009.  I was in the hospital with Airica, who was doing very well by the way.  They were going to prepare to take her off the heart bypass today but changed their minds so that I could enjoy a stress free (somewhat) Mother's Day.  

My dad brought Alyssa to the hospital to pick me up.  He stayed at the hospital in my place and hung out with Christopher and took on the hourly visits with Airica, who by the way was SO alert.  It was the first Mother's Day that I couldn't spend with my girls like I was used to.  It was very difficult to leave the hospital and go out into the world and try to be normal.

I think that I needed it though.  Alyssa needed some Mommy time too.  We went to a movie theater near the hospital to see the Hannah Montana Movie.  On, Mother's Day I celebrate how grateful I am to be a mother, and who do I celebrate?  Well, the ones that made me a mother of course, my children.  It has always been our tradition to do something fun, kid-friendly (really just kid stuff), all together.  So, although we did this, it was really hard.  I tried to sit there and eat popcorn, drink Icee's and have a good time,  but my mind was at the hospital  and my eye was on my cell phone.  Alyssa knew this, she understood why, I felt bad, but she was just happy to be sitting with her mommy hand in hand.

As we headed back to the hospital we both agreed that we tried, and that it was good to be together, but not the same without sissy.  We vowed to never spend another Mother's Day without each other.  

Upon arriving at the hospital, Airica knew I was gone and being very fussy about it.  I had to suit up and go see her as my dad and Alyssa waited outside.  I didn't want Alyssa to see her sister like this, and Airica had said before she went to sleep that she didn't want her sister to see her like this.  I went in to calm her down and let her know I was there and I loved her.  I bent over to kiss her forehead and she lifted her left arm up and wrapped it around my head giving me the best thing she could that day a hug.  Crazy right?  She is sedated and halfway unconscious and still being spoiled, but finding the strength for a Mother's Day squeeze.

My dad suited up to see her once more before he left and joined me in her room.  He then asked me if he could treat me to a Mother's Day dinner at a vegan place that was close to the hospital.  I thought that would be nice.  Christopher, Alyssa, my dad and I could go have a nice quick dinner together.  I told him that sounded good.  As I turned to look at Airica she crunched up her face and was waving her finger back and forth in a "no" motion.  I kissed her once more and told her I would see her soon, then the rest of us headed out for a Mother's Day dinner.